I tend to live a crazy life that's probably why I don't have a wife but in the midst of all my bad I did just as much good. Exposed to reality at a early age all my life I simply wanted to turn the page. No need in running from the reality that is me cause everything I ain't made me that I am. As the days go by and time keeps turning each day I keep on learning ...

Complex

Truthfully I am nowhere the me I know I am destined to be. One side of me is about saving the community and being a positive voice to the next generation but that same voice is seasoned at manipulation and has often been used to manipulate women for money and sex yea I know this shit is complex. Never have I ever really had press up to survive my bare minimum of effort tends to be better than average yet I know that a focused me is nothing shy of great yea I know this struggle is complex. Doing my best left me sad confused and upset but while I was bullshitting I was happy had some change in my pocket and looked at my best yea I know this shit is complex. no man is without flaw and we all have our vices. I would probably be ready to kill somebody son if the ever introduced my daugters to the type of shit that I once did yea I know this shit is complex. Yet each day I arise focused on the prize that is yet to come while learning to choose my battles wisely all the while fearing none hoping that i enjoy sweet victory prior to a bitter demise. Hoping my gift is not also my curse and my deeds will be seen loved and appreciated by the universe yea I know this shit is complex....

Stuck

Tryna make do with what I got but for some odd reason progress is limited. I never been a quitter fighting always came natural but i still feel stuck. Am i fighting to survive or is the struggle destiny idk but i feel stuck. I do all that I can to help other not for gratification but thats what we pose to do yet I still feel stuck. I aint planning on quiting but man i sure hate to feel stuck...

Kaci K

It's crazy to see you all grown up and doing big things. I am so proud of you and your biggest fan as I see so much than you can do. Congrats on the milestone as you are very well deserving of all the accolades. This is just the beginning and success is all that will be expected and or accepted of you going forward. The top is the destination so get ready and know your bro will be right there to aid and assist lets get it lil buddy...

Should I

Should I adore you the way I do
Should I think of you as much as I do
Should I consider the ideas that I do as they pertain to you
Should I let go and let be
Should I even feel that you would even check for somebody like me
Should I just stop thinking and sit back and see what this will be
Should I .....

random

Tho i know where we stand often times i have random thoughts that revolve around you. For instance the mentioning of ms badu has instant connection to you. Regardless of what is or what will be you are always going to be simply amazing to me and hopefully as you reach the pinacle of greatness i be able to smile and celebrate your accomplishments ...

never never land

Sometimes in the midst of the day i take second to think and drift away. Lately the trip my mind goes on is short and never sweet. The place i land is never never land. In this dismal place nothing ever works as planned. Never never will i get ahead never never will my load be easy to bare. Never never will you to take time to care . Never never will truly find success. Never never will you ever be respected and treated as the beat. Never never will your love and kind giving spirit be reciprocated. The crazy thing is never never land is starting to feel like less of a dream and maybe I never never leave