Pessimist or Realist ?

Riddle me this; If your daily life tends to be a great big meal of dissatisfaction and disappointment with a side order of crazy a desert plate of hate and a tall glass of u needed stress to go with the rest what is there to be optimistic about? If in every arena you tend to lose regardless of what strategy you use why would optimism be something you choose? Is is it still considered pessimistic if everything you do has a negative ending And no matter how much effort you put in you still end up losing wouldn't be realistic to consider that this ain't your season and it's not your turn to be a winner? If negativity is a constant in tour life and you begin to think negative about every situation in your life is it still pessimistic or are you accepting reality based on the cards that have been dealt and nothing ever going right ...

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Struggle and strive strive and struggle be miserable alone with my pride or swallow it ask for help that's what being humble is right ...

when

When the things and people that once served as a release coping skill or escape become mandatory needed to make it thru your day then what release is left for a rainy day? When will peace be the norm and chaos merely a occurrence. When will peace be a regular way of life when can I catch a break and relax one day

hmmm...

If I lower my expectations of you and our situation do I in turn lower or lessen the chance of you disappointing me? Am I settling for less under the false pretense of hoping for the best or am I a glutton for punishment and subscribing to an illusion like all the rest....

simplicity

The absence of money love and loyalty have made me enjoy the simplicity of solitude. How quickly the tables turn when you no longer do things the way the want you to and find your voice and refuse to accept the bs they constantly selling. Broke and sain beats rich and living a lie fucc u too I always been resilient if nothing else now left to my own vices I enjoy the simplicity of the simple life I know am leading. ..

I refuse

I refuse to accept things from you that have no validity. I refuse to stick around and shower you with love when you treat me as if your enemy I refuse to act as if you do no wrong I refuse to believe that without life cant go on I refuse to hurt myself in a attempt to please another I refuse to take it on the chin and ask please dont do it again I refuse to keep trying to open the a door that you obviously never wanted me in I refuse to apologize when I did no wrong ...

Isnt it amazing...

"Isn't it amazing how you can talk so much shit but we still lack communication". Thats a drake lyric that has been so true in my dealings with women some more than others. Knowing all the old cliche sayings about communication ruling the nation etc etc. It never ceases to amaze me how many people suck at communication. It crazy how joe blow can tell you something that have you mad at your spouse partner or whatever title people use these days. Outsiders get greater communication from you than person you need to communicate with the most. Every rumor is true cause if it wasnt why would they have brought it to you and regardless of what truth I say you already know it aint true yep thats how it went. How easy it is to discuss anything dealing with lies cheating and such but difficult it is to address the things that make you the way you are. Constantly villianizing a innocent person will never get you far.....