random

Tho i know where we stand often times i have random thoughts that revolve around you. For instance the mentioning of ms badu has instant connection to you. Regardless of what is or what will be you are always going to be simply amazing to me and hopefully as you reach the pinacle of greatness i be able to smile and celebrate your accomplishments ...

never never land

Sometimes in the midst of the day i take second to think and drift away. Lately the trip my mind goes on is short and never sweet. The place i land is never never land. In this dismal place nothing ever works as planned. Never never will i get ahead never never will my load be easy to bare. Never never will you to take time to care . Never never will truly find success. Never never will you ever be respected and treated as the beat. Never never will your love and kind giving spirit be reciprocated. The crazy thing is never never land is starting to feel like less of a dream and maybe I never never leave

Insecurity

INSECURITY [in-si-kyoor-i-tee] Show IPA noun, plural in·se·cu·ri·ties. 1. lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt: 2. the quality or state of being insecure; The key world in this definition is SELF. Self doubt meaning a problem that you have for whatever reason.We all have them for one reason or another. They not bad completely they actually can motivate us to do better and the end result of conquering them will only better us. I have conflict though when your insecurity becomes a issue for me. I have conflict when your insecurity makes my already complicated life a lil more complicated. Don't allow your insecurity to ruin a good thing or stunt your growth as a person. If you scared to overcome said insecurities then its no longer a insecurity but a character trait as you have adopted it into your daily life. Nobody deserves to be tortured as a result of things created in your mind that are not true. If you insecurity is that great and that important then maybe I should just allow you and your insecurities time to bond and go on about my day cause as it stands nothing i do or say will help them go away anyway...

Caution vs fear

Caution is a great concept. Only a fool will fear caution as they are lost with being engulfed in choas. But there is a big difference in caution and fear. Fear is possibily the trickiest emotion in the world. For some fear is a ally as it motivates and guides their thought process and often times saves them from themselves. On the other hand it traps some and allows them to trap themselves in a box mentally and emotionally. They rationalize and settle for the saftey of things and situations which are familiar other than make attempts at something new. Fear guided decision making is dangerous as you find yourself wasting the most precious resource ever time. The time lost while in this box can't be retrieved and the realization of this lost time usually leaves a more bitter taste than that of failure acoompanied by maxium effort. Caution on the other hand is more logical to me. The use of caution can lighten the blow of failure as you didn't allow yourself to get in too deep. Strategy and caution rank high in my book of things we need to know master and practice daily. A fearful man will never try to be great simply settle for what is safe. A cautious man will strategicly way all factors while attempting greatness with certain built in fail safes in the event something goes wrong. Try hard and smart or settle and suffer...

Change

I am not against change as we know change is needed as we dont wanna be left behind the times. Evolution is a natural part of our world. The conflict I jave is when you change so much you necome the people we use to dispise. No sense of self yet you go thru the motions as if you are in control. Lost in the sauce god forbid he/she leave you cause you burned thw bridges in ya pursuit of whatever the fuk you pursued. Once upon a time it was us vs them now u a them but even know you are. You nonchalant arrogant responses are insulting and sickening as I have sacrificed many things and much time to look out for the home team but you jump ship with no remorse

Am I my brothers/sisters keeper...

Am I my brother/sisters keeper if so why is it my attempts to keep them keeps me in the middle of conflict? Gracious and helpful intentions misunderstood as picking sides and tolerance. Though I disagree with what you say and do sometimes but isnt my responsibility to right or wrong be of aid to you? As time passes and what little good that is left to be associated with my name instantly becomes questionable cause I took one for the team. Losses on the name of loyalty hurt more when loyalty is not reciprocated and I stood to gain nothing to begin with. Good bad ugly or otherwise know you can count on me cause you never had a friend like me but the million dollar question is can you be the same to me .

I rather...

I rather have a dedicated enemy than a sometimes friend. I rather have a broke sensible friend than a rich one who is out of touch with reality. I rather have my sanity and integrity than fame and fortune. I rather die as a result of giving my all than to live miserably having not tried at all. I rather stand alone for what I believe than have have a following based off false hope. I rather suffer the pain of my mistakes than point the blame at you. I rather be silent than speaking another to their demise. I rather die today than forever live a lie. I rather see you live than help you die. I rather teach you a skill than allow you to depend on me in order to survive. I rather......