I refuse

I refuse to accept things from you that have no validity. I refuse to stick around and shower you with love when you treat me as if your enemy I refuse to act as if you do no wrong I refuse to believe that without life cant go on I refuse to hurt myself in a attempt to please another I refuse to take it on the chin and ask please dont do it again I refuse to keep trying to open the a door that you obviously never wanted me in I refuse to apologize when I did no wrong ...

Isnt it amazing...

"Isn't it amazing how you can talk so much shit but we still lack communication". Thats a drake lyric that has been so true in my dealings with women some more than others. Knowing all the old cliche sayings about communication ruling the nation etc etc. It never ceases to amaze me how many people suck at communication. It crazy how joe blow can tell you something that have you mad at your spouse partner or whatever title people use these days. Outsiders get greater communication from you than person you need to communicate with the most. Every rumor is true cause if it wasnt why would they have brought it to you and regardless of what truth I say you already know it aint true yep thats how it went. How easy it is to discuss anything dealing with lies cheating and such but difficult it is to address the things that make you the way you are. Constantly villianizing a innocent person will never get you far.....

Scars

Whether visible or hidden. Whether physical or emotional. We all have a few. A writer once said "Scars are there to remind us where we been but they don't have to dictate where we are going". Don't let the past control you in the present. Seems to me it be real hard to make forward progress while looking behind you ...

Dark Thought

Dark thought aint healthy but here lately its become common and necessary. After playing nice, being tactful and considerate with negative results it shouldn't be hard to believe my mind begins to entertain thoughts that are ridiculous and ignorant. Like what if each problem could be solved with violence like if it was ok to go out and just riot. Make a mess cause constant mayhem so they can know the angered state that I seem to stay in. To set fire to the institutions that trained us to be this way. Tear a hole in the set of norms they established and by the end of the war maybe see a brighter day. Sick and tired of taking this and that just cause. Being understanding simply because they say "that's just what he or she does". Angry to the point of destruction because the lack of honesty and loyalty is beyond disgusting. Caring not about the big picture at all just that I see the demise of every one and every thing that has wronged me in the slightest way then reality kicks in and I go on about my way ...

Well well well

Some where along the way I lost the interest and energy to exhibit certain feelings like empathy and sympathy because every time I do shit seems to end pitifully for me. Constant betrayal and repeated acts of contradiction have made it hard for me to care or even listen. Not to mention in my time of need the folks I help most be the first ones missing. its ok another lesson learned the hard way but change is on the horizon and doing shit from now on my way. At the end of the day well well well was all I could say

Time

So many quotes and famous references made to time and the management of such yet we still seem to waste her so much. On things and people who dont deserve it chasing a dream only to find out it really aint about shit. Time the most precious resource we have yet we misuse and abuse her so bad but soon as the shit hit the fan we so quick to say what we would do to have her all back ...

Welp

Moments that were once sacred are now tainted simply cause the whole truth came out. It was memorable and what I thought to be the breaking of new ground til your secrets were exposed and shut that down. Now what everything I found to be wholesome and cool destroyed by lies and make me look like a fool. Sometime u win some times you lose guess karmas a bitch in red high heel shoes.....