Thinking. ..

Deep inside my mind are thoughts I rarely choose to share. One reason I don't share is because I wonder do you truly care. Why would you I'm sure you have your own issues and concerns. Secondly I wonder if the thoughts would scare you and put even more distance between us. Some of these thoughts are old and some are new. As much as I tend to lean to my own understanding I still find myself wondering what you may do if these thoughts belonged to you. So what's a man to do...

Self reflection

Its a priceles thing to be able to look in the mirror and see progression. To know that all is not in vain and a least a piece of the process is working while en route to a complte transformation. In my younger years all my behaviors were driven by attention and wanting to be validated. Now I could care less for your attention or admiration. The time wasted on a meaningless quest to fit it and be accepted like the rest was the polar opposite of what needed to be done in order to achieve my personal best. I guess it wasnt a complete waste though cause if nothing else I have a clear picture of the shenangins in which I care not to associated with any more.....