Sunday, December 30, 2012

Untitled .......

You pretty lil liar you.... I must admit you're very good at wha you do but at the same time my heart hurts for you. You're so lost in your own web of lies and deceit, its only natural for you to decieve everyone you meet. Loyal to no quest or cause but your own, if they dont benefit you you simply move along.Remorse is merely a word in your world although I know somewhere inside of you still lies inside of you lies a innocent little girl with talents and skill sets that can one day change the world.Its not completely your fault that you act the way you act. So many factors play into this situation. product of your enviroment, exposed to that game at a young age it aint on you its in ya thats a fact. Its ok to be strong to avoid future hurt but dont let fear make you so cold you miss out on the simple pleasures of life. Everybody aint ya enemy everybody wont hurt you and everybody dont deserve to be victims of the viscious cycle. You so much better than what you choose to show and tho its cliche you never kknow what you can be if you never take a chance to see......

Friday, December 28, 2012

what to do

In a time where all loyality is lost and friendship has no value whats a man that trys to live upright on principle such as morals and ethic to do ? Does he A forget all things he knows to be true give up himself simply to appease the likes of you or does he B become a hermit denounce all social involvement and simply be alone or does he C skin and grin hide his pride and frustration just to get along or D go on a rant and rave exposing all those who betrayed what they know to be true attack their false fame and hyped up names with real life claims that will show you they really aint that cool no way hmmm what to do......

Thursday, December 27, 2012

2012 in review

Every year i sit and reflect on the year that I had. I can say this was truly a year of discovery. I learned so much about myself thru the manner in which I dealt with others. I found even tho it was brief a level of enjoyment that i really had given up hope to find. I watched the downfall of some strong bonds over bullshit and witnessed the power of non validated info destroy some potential awesome situations. I learnerd to not be so quick to shoot but to make sure every shot fired serves its designed purpose. I did wrong I did good I loved I lost I told many lies and many truth. I hate the term "new years resolution" but i have no problem with making some self observations and attempting to change them. All things we experience have a lesson in them its on us to pay attention and learn it and save us the trouble of repeating the same mistakes. 2013 will be interesting as new friends have been made and old wounds still arent healed but with observation and strategy I think i be ok ....

Saturday, December 22, 2012


I do not believe in luck but I do believ all things happen for a reason. Today reaffirmed my belief in this theory. I had the chance to meet a major potential contact by simply being myself. Never in a million years believe a person with such ctedentials would cross my path and hit it off with ease whats the chances of that...

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Only as good as it benefits them

LOYAL:faithful to one's oath, commitments, or obligations: characterized by or showing faithfulness to commitments, vows, allegiance, obligations, etc Reciprocation: a returning, usually for something given.a mutual giving and receiving. The above definitions are two things things I harp on often. The lack of these things make life a lot less fun. To know that your loyal deeds are not appreciated and simply looked at as that what "he" pose to do since he my friend is not going to cut it no more. To go above and beyond for friends and not for recognition or praise but simply because as a friend you believe the same will be afforded to you. I have went without in trust that friends would pay debt on time nope. I ask of you nothing yet every time I speak with you you need of me smh. The fact that our friendship benefits you and your needs more than it benifits me is crazy. The fact that I can't even vent to a friend without first having to counsel and console them and there shit that i never even see the point in attempting to voice my issues. Maybe since I am only as it benefits them maybe I should just remove myself from them .........

Monday, December 3, 2012

So called

In recent weeks I have witnessd lies thievery betrayal and down right slime ball tactics directly as well as indirectly. The fact that it happened doesnt bother me at all its the people who carried out these acts that is the cause for discomfort. People i love and trust to be solid have been the exact opposite. It took me a few days to really put it all together and when I did it hurt. To know you made sacrifices to assist them and be a good friend only for greed and ego to cause them to bring dishonor to once solid realtionships os crazy to me. I believe my so called friend list will continue to lose members as the list of people i associate with wil become non existent as well

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Why bother

Sometimes i feel like all i do is waste time and go thru the motions. Everything seems to be to the benefit of others and not for self. Friends and family use you like ya puppet and never show gratitude for your deeds.Drinking to pass the time nothing makes since why bother......

Monday, November 12, 2012

Lie to me lie to me lie to me so sweet......

I remember the first time i heard this statement in a song. O how relevent and powerful a statement it was at such a interesting time. Don't get lost in the sauce even the one that come homes and lays in the bed with you cooks ya meals maybe even runs ya bath water will cheat. I dont believe i am so awesome that it cant happen to me cause it has and more than once in more than one relationship. But my pride ask of you to please lie to me lie to me lie to me so sweet ignorance is bliss i know exactly what this is........


The statement is comonnly made that men now days dont know how to treat a woman. They say chivalry is dead, love is a losing game, and everybody just wanna fuk and have a boo thang. So if this the norm whose fault is it? Women criticize men for there behavior 24/7 but ladies do you stop to think of the behavor you exhibit and how they may effect him in his approach to dealing with you? Chivalry dead huh naw i beg to differ in generations past chivalry was the standard now it seems to be an option. Chivalry is such a foreign experience to some women that have absolutely no knowledge in how to accept and appreciate chivalry when it is being shown to them. If i compliment her she say its game, if i hold her door or pull out her chair im showing out for attention. Love well thats one monster that has every been a easy conquer but its simple you get out what you put in and if you put ya best in and get played in the end its ok learn from your mistakes and not repeat them the next go round. The rise of the no title boo thang agreement is hilarious because if you have relationship rules interactions and expectations from your boo thang might as well make it official and save yaself the hassle. Last but not least everybody want sex with no strings attached well i think it takes a cold male or female to truly fuk consitently no strings attached if you have the ability to detach yourself from reality and the natural emotions having sex with a person brings you are one tough person.If you want more than sex from him or her dont be so easy to give it and they may appreciate it the fact you made em work for it......

Must have...

In order to prosper in any endeavor in this life three things you must have. These three things are DETERMINATION,DIRECTION,and DISCIPLINE. Without these you will surely struggle. Determination gives you the strenght and courage to continue when everybody says its a bad idea or you not seeing the fruits of your labor as fast as you may want to. Direction is vital without strategy and understanding of what you want to achieve as well as the obstacles you may be faced with than prepare to do tons of back tracking and losing. Discipline is the most vital component of the three. Discipline to pick yor battles wisely, discipline to know when walking away is really a victory, discipline to know when to shut the fuk up and not talk yourself out of a good thing. With these 3D's one can succed and achieve whatever level of success one believes......

Monday, November 5, 2012


I do not and refuse to endorse support accept nor willing indulge or participate in any types of FUCKERY,COONISM,TOM FOOLERY,SHANANAGINS, OR STUPIDITY. Keep that shit to yourself good day!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 3, 2012

I don't owe you shit

I am ranting once again this one has been a problem for me for years now. I hate for a person to feel I owe them something. This can be a friend a lover a ex etc etc. Who are you? What makes you so special to where you feel I should completely conform to any and all things that make you feel happy and important? It is not my job to appease your feelings or insecurities. I am not obligated to anyone but GOD,ESSNCE ,AND KYNDEN. The selfish misguided sense of entitlement is disgusting. I don't owe you shit.......

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Sad Truth

One of the saddest things Ive learned to be true was reinterated to me today. Tragedy is possibly the easiest way to unite a people. In the face of death or any other tragedy everyone is willing to come to the aid of another. The uniting factor is possibly pain because pain spares no race sex or creed. Why is it that it takes the unthinkable or unexpected for people to grab hold to a cause and agressively pursue change? Politicians and several companies know this too and tend to profit as a result of our fears and pain. Tragedy shouldnt be the only thing that binds a family, community,city,state,etc etc hopefully one day we can evolve past this sad truth.....


Watch your thoughts, for they become words. Watch your words, for they become actions. Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become character. Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

A hard pill to swallow

Death is never easy to cope with. All people grieve differently. The death of a child is a whole different monster to face and I have yet to find the proper strategy to successfully face such monster. The fact that a innocent kid could be called home makes my mind race. Not yet fully understanding the ills of this cold cruel world. A person who has wronged not a soul but simply spread love and in some situations saved many simply by being alive. Maybe god needed this soul to spread cheer amongst the heavens. I may never know but none the less a hard pill to swallow ......

Monday, October 29, 2012

Save yourself

This rant is just my opinion I hate to see everyone assume the role of judge jury and executioner as it pertains to everybody but themselves. How easy it is for us to find flaws in others yet even harder to examine our own behavior. I see it daily folks pass judgement on our peers when we have the same issue we just didn't get caught. There is nothing you can say or do to aid another if you afraid to face your own demons. Pray for them not judge them. If you not right ya self you are of no help to them or anybody for that matter. It's better to work on ya self then trying to fix them.

Evolution or the lack there of .....

It's amazing to see evolution take place . As time passes we grow we get stronger and wiser. Some fear evolution but I embrace and promote healthy evolution of all kinds. The part that scares me is negative evolution. For example waiting til you are an adult to wholeheartedly indulge in acts and lifestyles associated with youth. The only thing I want to relive or experience from my past the fact I didn't have any debt and minimal responsibilities. Evolution should grow you and those around you not cause you to revert and lose sense of reality......

Life is .......

Life is a journey not a destination. The journey is unique for each of us. Though our paths may cross somewhere down the line I can't live for you nor you for me. Some of our paths will be the road less traveled while others will have short trips without interruption. The obstacles and road blocks we may face should not be the hight light of the journey. The lesson learned from the experience now that's something to talk about. Every experience has a lesson. This journey will introduce you to many faces and many places. Not all will you remember but others you will never forget. Cherish the good the bad the ugly and the otherwise. Live life for yourself and not based on the expectation of others life is what you make it choices and decisions we make can help our or hinder us along the way. Life is.....

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

It could always be worse

I tend to be negative sometimes when I should be grateful because it could always be worse. Though I don't have it all I have enough. There is always someone doing worse than you so in a sense you should be happy you not in there shoes. As hard times arrive always remember to S.T.O.P. stop think observe and plan the fact you alive is reason to keep fighting besides it could always be worse........

Thursday, October 4, 2012

u never may know

U never may know the effect ya deeds has on the life of another especially if ya intent is bogus. U never know who is watching listening and in some cases mimicing your behaviors and ideals. U never may know how a simple smile or hug may save somebodies life. U never may know who depends on you not for finance or emotion but who simply gains strenght or comfort from you being in there life . Dont be an ass and take out the frustrations of ya life on the ones who love you. U never may know if they will be here to accept that apology........

Friday, September 14, 2012


Contreversy is a tricky game. Some contreversy is healty but contreversy all the time is unhealthy. I go above and beyond to be as low key as possible yet contrversy is a daily occurance for me it seems. Maybe i talk too much love too hard too loyal. Maybe im too outspoken but whatever the case I am sick of it. I mean no harm but i can only be me . I was always to speak up and stand up for any cause i see as just. The reality is that my reality morals and values are of a olden kind . People care only about things that dont matter all good is negated by one bad. I love my people but the hermit life seems more appealing daily never here of hermits facing controversy.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

repetitiveness & redundancy

We have heard several quotes and cliches about repetition. Repetitiveness and redundancy have pros and cons. If it aint broke don't fix it is what they say so I am all about a continuing a successful system or cycle that creates and promotes growth and progress but what about failed systems? Relationships, business ventures, and any other thing that has brought nothing but failure and disgrace why repeat it? Insanity is defined as doing the EXACT same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. Why do we tend to gravitate repeatedly to the things and people that cause us to lose? Do we like losing and being disappointed? It would seem that way as we evaluate ourselves and our behavior over the years repetitiveness and redundancy has hurt us more than it has helped us. Things don't change unless we make them change. You will never know what you truly can be without venturing out and taking chances to change your situation don't let familiarity handicap your mind and limit your success.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Steve Jobs

We all know the brilliance this man possessed and all the innovations he has made in the world. I was truly moved when I heard a clip of a speech he gave to the graduating class of 2005 of Standford Univeristy. I first heard a clip this speech on a track by Nipsey Hussle entitled "Who Detached Us". This excerpt is my favorite and quite motivating to say the least. "No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." - Steve Jobs Hopefully you will find this as inspiring as I did.

Saturday, September 8, 2012

A Time and A Place

Daily I'm reminded why i conduct myself the way I do. I've yet to be proven wrong women lie better than anybody and i fell victim to several. As i put you on a pedastool and applauded you now i begin to laugh knowing you no different than the rest in knowing that the time and place is now you lose and you don't even know it


So a friend of mine brought this to my attention so i decided to share it. Urban search my name you name and others names its quite funny what you may find but my definitions was pretty accurate lol

Friday, August 24, 2012


If your involvement in a relationship friendship or any other social union is only about you and your own personal gain it will fail.. Withouout common ground reciprication and a substantial amount of mutual growth it will never work. Nobody wants to be used or manipulated yet we tend to allow ourselves to be on a regular basis usually in the name of love and loyality. One sided bonds always end bad and leave deep scars .Be mindful of what you do and why your doing it the 50/50 policy should be a mandatory minimum requirement for all our dealings with people.Dont get played with ypur eyes wide open and know when to let go quitting aint bad if its a toxic situation. Reciprication or nothing never settle or be prepaired for the bitter taste of failure

Saturday, August 18, 2012


Transition can be defined as :process of change: a process or period in which something undergoes a change and passes from one state, stage, form, or activity to another. Not all transitions are pleasant or enjoyable. I believe the good is just as needed as the bad transitions to truly achieve greatness. The bible all things have a season so transition is definitely need to truly optimize growth and progression. Embrace transition as in the end it simply makes you better and allows you to be all that you destined to be .....

Friday, August 17, 2012

This time

This tiime has to be different. This time losing is not an option. this time I do it for me and nobody else this time i cant take no short cuts this time I got to come out on top

Thursday, August 16, 2012


What is freedom? They say nothing beats freedom.Just cause you not in a jumpsuit dont make you free. See me I am a prisoner in my own mind. Trapped inside a wealth of thoughts that yeild no solutions only more questions. Daily its a struggle. Fear of failure tends to limit ones success.Secrets that i will take to my grave make me timid shdn i should go all out. The first sign of familiarity throws me into a point of defense amd then boom stuck again.

Sunday, July 29, 2012


I miss her yes I do the things that took place I wish they werent true I miss her so much though what I did was messed up I know that what she was to me no other may ever be I miss her cooking I miss her smile I miss her rough around the edges style man do I miss her but maybe one day she will return if not maybe me and her truly wasnt meant to be


Its not always promised that certain opportunity will knock more than once. Its necessary to take full advantage of these when they present themselves. Nobody has your best interest at heart but you so never let others define what opportunity is best suited for you. If the chance to better yourself is there dont be a afraid to leap out on faith and make it happen.

Saturday, June 23, 2012


I heard it on a movie once and wrote it off a a cool ass line but as the days go by I tend to find new importance to this simple line. "TO TRUST NO ONE IS TO TRUST EVERYONE EQUALLY".At first glimpse it seems cold but in reality its quite possibly the best way to be. You dont have to be rude or mean about it simply listen interact and until said information is consistently confirmed don't buy it. Wealth, love, and the need to be accepted are a few things that tend to cloud our judgement when dealing with people. Not everyone is solid nor shares your point of veiw. Its not really hard to believe all people have an agenda and no two agendas are exactly the same. Misguided trust ends in headache and heart break so at times I wonder why trust at all

Friday, June 22, 2012

Not for me to understand

For the life of me I have yet to understand how in one breathe you hate a person and the next they get a pass and we have a meal and make peace. If I really hate you a steak aint gon bring peace. Negros get on social networks group me text and in there lil circles and talk cash shit I'm beat his or her ass on sight then bump into one another chat and take club photos as a peace treaty stop the fukn madness dont get me wrong some offense are small enough to forgive and forget but some arent but it raises red flags about what your convo about me when im not around is really like wonder did you set me up or sell me out but I guess it is not for me to make sense of

Are you this woman?

if there is a man that truly completely understands women man you a awesome dude. I have come to the conclusion that is on task I will never master. For example she said I hate arguing so you leave to avoid the argument but now you ignoring her and not sympathetic to here concerns or she say i like you alot im scared so you let your guards down now you needy and cant share your feelings where is the compromise? Or she say you always want sex you so perverted but the night you chilling and dont put out you either cheating or selfish. Women love to be right but you agree with them and they think you insulting them or blowing them off its a damn shame cant live with them but cant live without them smh


One of the greatest lessons I ever learned in church wasn't from a scripture but just as powerful and relevant. I will never forget it either. Rev said "YOU CAN LEARN SOMETHING FROM ANYONE,EVEN FROM A FOOL EVEN IF THE LESSON IS SIMPLY HOW NOT TO BE A FOOL"! This simple statement has helped me through many situation and also made me acknowledge the role we all have as INFORMAL EDUCATORS and to take such a responsibility serious. You never know who is watching, listening, and mimicing the behavior they see you exhibit. I never want my words and deeds to contribute to the downfall of another. our youth are so impressionable and willing to attach themselves to any cause so why not give them a positive cause to be attached too. I aint talking church groups but people like me and you with real life experiences taking a second to drop a bit of knowledge to a young brother or sister to help them avoid a possibly bad situation. Believe it or  not whether we want to accept and embrace it we all play the role of INFORMAL EDUCATOR what type of lessons are you teaching.........

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Follow your dreams

The world fears a person with a dream, because to have that dream gives you the ambition to fufill that dream. If you live your life fufilling that dream your going to glow man because there is a magnificence and a moment that comes with fufilling YOUR DREAM that you cant achieve being apart of someone elses -Killer Mike

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Self Preservation

Self-preservation is behavior that ensures the survival of an organism.[1] It is universal among living organisms.[citation needed] Pain and fear are parts of this mechanism. Pain motivates the individual to withdraw from damaging situations, to protect a damaged body part while it heals, and to avoid similar experiences in the future.[2] Most pain resolves promptly once the painful stimulus is removed and the body has healed, but sometimes pain persists despite removal of the stimulus and apparent healing of the body; and sometimes pain arises in the absence of any detectable stimulus, damage or disease.[3] Fear causes the organism to seek safety and may cause a release of adrenaline[4][5], which has the effect of increased strength and heightened senses such as hearing, smell, and sight. Self-preservation may also be interpreted figuratively; in regard to the coping mechanisms one needs to prevent emotional trauma from distorting the mind.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Screaming on the inside

Why are you so quiet today? The nice lady asked me but funny she used the word quiet. Its very loud noisy and chaotic at the moment at least inside my head. I respond I am ok just thinking. really I'm not ok. SCreaming fussing cussing crying and fighting all at once on the inside. Why you may wonder ha why not if you was me you would too. Thats the life for me these days. Bro got time my ace held by the feds only questions no answers lil sis struggling with the loss of the man she loved so dearly murded over bs it hurt like yesterday but its years old now just to name a few. But wait there is more I'm broke love life is non existant more responsibility than resouce and thats just the way its goes. Im not complaing tho just stating facts . I have found my niche in the midst of this choas and made myself at home. I probally wouldnt know how to function if things was any other way than they are. So even tho I am screaming on the inside I wear a smile on the outside............

Monday, April 23, 2012

Bad News

Bad news bad news bad news everywhere you look bad news. The phone ring bad news. Turn on the news bad news. Go to the mail box bad news. Good dying young elders leaving at a alarming rate whats next. Its all bad when your simply consit of seeing what bad news you going to get next. Really getting numb to the bad news starting to live a a life of nothing but bad news. They got the deck stacked and no hands coming my way wtf man bad news

Thursday, April 5, 2012


I hate death but I know it s a destiny no man can escape. For me death leave scars unanswered questions, and a wealth of other issues.Yea I know we all got to go one day but here lately people leaving at a alarming rate. The demographics are all over the place young old good folks bad folks its kinda scary.Sadly some deaths are easier to accept than others. Sadly some are expected cause of the lives they chose to lead.They say you should learn something from you got thru but what is the true lesson in death? The deceased aint here to teach it because they the only ones that know. Some say death teaches us to maximize our days in the world and be hospitible and square all our affairs in the world etc etc... We can go on and on about lessons that death can teach. At times I am jealous of those that got called home . It got to be better than this bullshit we call life. Life minus chaos, lies, pain, bills, and all things negative no struggling and not a concern of any sort hell maybe death is a victory............

Let Me Be

Somethings and some people are just fukn stupid no way around it. Provoking a man with serious temper issues is not smart. Compare it to poking a sleeping tiger a stick. Whe he wakes up and rips ya head off dont cry blame yaself. Its stupid to be so concerned with your point being hears that you disregard all other logic in said situatons such as the feelings of the others involved and effected by your actions. I am from here now and here own assuming the role of that sleeping tiger. I aint fukn with yall so let me be and I wont harm you. Poke me with a stick if you want to but the response you will get you wont like so just let me be and avoid the whole situation. If you do decide to poke and provoke me save the victim bullshit you cant control my rage cause has you never poked me to bgin with we wouldnt be in the situation to fukn begin with ...........

Tuesday, March 20, 2012


Wear a smile to hide the tears on the inside. Constantly self medicating with libations and isolation but I still feel no better maybe even a bit worse. Inside the mind of a youngin with champange taste and a beer budget, good intentions potential amd ambition but this only will get you so far. Much responsibility and few resource sometimes it feels impossible to stay the course. Following a dream could be the demise of present success all the while parenting and trying my best who knew this is what it would come to and who knows what test will be next........

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Message vs Delivery

Many times we miss a great message because the delivery is off a bit. I never want to miss an oppurtunity to help another or myself because the delivery is tainted. The key to communication is timing. Timing is vital to the success of anything. Don't let your message be lost by poor delivery. The time to share advice and criticism is vital to the recipient as it is to the messenger. Sometimes time is needed to think and word things properly. You never know the mindset of another regardless what you may think. Don't make the common mistake of expecting others to share the same opinion and values as you. A safe practice will be if you don't want a person to approach you with info don't approach them. Don't let something vital be listed by poor delivery just a thought.........

Thursday, March 15, 2012


Drugs and alcohol are not the only things we some time need to rid ourselves of. Detox has been defined as followed: 
1. To counteract or destroy the toxic properties of.
Now don't read this and say ferg told me to go kill and destroy any and everything that has been toxic to me but sometimes we must socially detox. We must get a way from the mix to see what ingredients in the mix are really not needed. Sometimes we must detox from family and friends. Everybody that say they care doesnt and every hand extended is not an attempt to help you. Survey your life and relationships and I am sure you can identify something or someone who is a toxin to your success. Once this toxin is identified sit back and weight the pros and cons of said toxin. If this toxin serves no role vital for you to sustain life let the detox begin. Detox is not always easy and normally involves sacrifice and pain. The only process known to have caused death is detoxing from alcohol so no cutting toxic people out your life wont kill you. Trust I am not preaching merely sharing a thought that I tend to put into action in the near future. Hopefully the end result will be something beautiful and beneficial to you and yours.

Pet Peave

The only thing worse than a liar is a hypocrite. Please don't make yourself believe you are right and all others are wrong because you don't wanna face reality. I was always told whats good for the goose is good for the gander. The old saying stands true aont no fun when the rabbit got the gun. Its always everybody else fault and its different when it comes to you yea fukn right. Right is right wrong is wrong it can't be everybodies fault every time. Suck it up or shut the fuk up either way I am going to be fine. The nobliest of deed and gestures can some how be misinterperted by some as some sinister ploy to decieve them conspiracy theorist for no damn reason smh just a rant peace

Wednesday, March 14, 2012



[muh-nog-uh-mee] Show IPA
marriage with only one person at a time. Compare bigamy, polygamy.
Zoology . the practice of having only one mate.
the practice of marrying only once during life.
Monogamy is revered as the way to go. So they say. Monogamy is redundant was a line in a rap song that got me to thinking. The practice of having one mate is ideal but how realistic is it. This is in no way a attempt to justify cheating, pologamy, or being a player. Simply an argument being made from the other side of the spectrum. I tend to get bored very easy. The same thing day in day out will drive me nuts. The same sex, same look, same argument will at some point get old. I believe monogamy can be achieved if both parties evolve at the same rate to remain the object of affection to there mate. If no growth as a unit takes place monogamy is doomed. Monogamy scares me it seems like setting yourself up to be hurt or hurt someone else. Variety is what makes life so much fun if one thing doest work there are several options available to attempt until you find whats best for you. Maybe thats it and the soultion to my issue maybe I havent found everything that works for me in one person maybe one day I will.........

A Breath Of Fresh Air

Out of the blue and in the blink of a eye everything went crazy. Life in overdrive and its all bad. Then she walked in and changed the whole mood. Her smile was soothing. Her voice seductive and calming in the midst of chaos. Her walk was truly something to see even the girls had to stop and stare. Her sexiest attribute wasnt physical at all. It was her confidence. She had a way about her that screamed I will come I will see and I will conquer losing is not an option. Who is she, idk exactly, didnt get a chance to get her name but her mere presence was a breath of fresh air.......


Sometimes I wonder why me Sometimes I wonder is struggle and  pain simply my destiny Sometimes I wonder do the people really that here lately I let stress get the best of me Sometimes I wonder what you would do if you were me  Sometimes I wonder if this shit even worth it Sometimes I wonder if I would still complain I discovered perfect Sometimes my mind drifts and I think alot of crazy things Sometimes I wonder if all of yall are stable and I'm the one thats insane Sometimes I wonder is all my hard work in vein Sometimes..............