Pessimist or Realist ?

Riddle me this; If your daily life tends to be a great big meal of dissatisfaction and disappointment with a side order of crazy a desert plate of hate and a tall glass of u needed stress to go with the rest what is there to be optimistic about? If in every arena you tend to lose regardless of what strategy you use why would optimism be something you choose? Is is it still considered pessimistic if everything you do has a negative ending And no matter how much effort you put in you still end up losing wouldn't be realistic to consider that this ain't your season and it's not your turn to be a winner? If negativity is a constant in tour life and you begin to think negative about every situation in your life is it still pessimistic or are you accepting reality based on the cards that have been dealt and nothing ever going right ...

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Struggle and strive strive and struggle be miserable alone with my pride or swallow it ask for help that's what being humble is right ...

when

When the things and people that once served as a release coping skill or escape become mandatory needed to make it thru your day then what release is left for a rainy day? When will peace be the norm and chaos merely a occurrence. When will peace be a regular way of life when can I catch a break and relax one day

hmmm...

If I lower my expectations of you and our situation do I in turn lower or lessen the chance of you disappointing me? Am I settling for less under the false pretense of hoping for the best or am I a glutton for punishment and subscribing to an illusion like all the rest....

simplicity

The absence of money love and loyalty have made me enjoy the simplicity of solitude. How quickly the tables turn when you no longer do things the way the want you to and find your voice and refuse to accept the bs they constantly selling. Broke and sain beats rich and living a lie fucc u too I always been resilient if nothing else now left to my own vices I enjoy the simplicity of the simple life I know am leading. ..