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You pretty lil liar you.... I must admit you're very good at wha you do but at the same time my heart hurts for you. You're so lost in your own web of lies and deceit, its only natural for you to decieve everyone you meet. Loyal to no quest or cause but your own, if they dont benefit you you simply move along.Remorse is merely a word in your world although I know somewhere inside of you still lies inside of you lies a innocent little girl with talents and skill sets that can one day change the world.Its not completely your fault that you act the way you act. So many factors play into this situation. product of your enviroment, exposed to that game at a young age it aint on you its in ya thats a fact. Its ok to be strong to avoid future hurt but dont let fear make you so cold you miss out on the simple pleasures of life. Everybody aint ya enemy everybody wont hurt you and everybody dont deserve to be victims of the viscious cycle. You so much better than what you choose to show and tho its cliche you never kknow what you can be if you never take a chance to see......

what to do

In a time where all loyality is lost and friendship has no value whats a man that trys to live upright on principle such as morals and ethic to do ? Does he A forget all things he knows to be true give up himself simply to appease the likes of you or does he B become a hermit denounce all social involvement and simply be alone or does he C skin and grin hide his pride and frustration just to get along or D go on a rant and rave exposing all those who betrayed what they know to be true attack their false fame and hyped up names with real life claims that will show you they really aint that cool no way hmmm what to do......

2012 in review

Every year i sit and reflect on the year that I had. I can say this was truly a year of discovery. I learned so much about myself thru the manner in which I dealt with others. I found even tho it was brief a level of enjoyment that i really had given up hope to find. I watched the downfall of some strong bonds over bullshit and witnessed the power of non validated info destroy some potential awesome situations. I learnerd to not be so quick to shoot but to make sure every shot fired serves its designed purpose. I did wrong I did good I loved I lost I told many lies and many truth. I hate the term "new years resolution" but i have no problem with making some self observations and attempting to change them. All things we experience have a lesson in them its on us to pay attention and learn it and save us the trouble of repeating the same mistakes. 2013 will be interesting as new friends have been made and old wounds still arent healed but with observation and strategy I think i be ok ....

Chance

I do not believe in luck but I do believ all things happen for a reason. Today reaffirmed my belief in this theory. I had the chance to meet a major potential contact by simply being myself. Never in a million years believe a person with such ctedentials would cross my path and hit it off with ease whats the chances of that...

Only as good as it benefits them

LOYAL:faithful to one's oath, commitments, or obligations: characterized by or showing faithfulness to commitments, vows, allegiance, obligations, etc Reciprocation: a returning, usually for something given.a mutual giving and receiving. The above definitions are two things things I harp on often. The lack of these things make life a lot less fun. To know that your loyal deeds are not appreciated and simply looked at as that what "he" pose to do since he my friend is not going to cut it no more. To go above and beyond for friends and not for recognition or praise but simply because as a friend you believe the same will be afforded to you. I have went without in trust that friends would pay debt on time nope. I ask of you nothing yet every time I speak with you you need of me smh. The fact that our friendship benefits you and your needs more than it benifits me is crazy. The fact that I can't even vent to a friend without first having to counsel and console them and there shit that i never even see the point in attempting to voice my issues. Maybe since I am only as it benefits them maybe I should just remove myself from them .........

So called

In recent weeks I have witnessd lies thievery betrayal and down right slime ball tactics directly as well as indirectly. The fact that it happened doesnt bother me at all its the people who carried out these acts that is the cause for discomfort. People i love and trust to be solid have been the exact opposite. It took me a few days to really put it all together and when I did it hurt. To know you made sacrifices to assist them and be a good friend only for greed and ego to cause them to bring dishonor to once solid realtionships os crazy to me. I believe my so called friend list will continue to lose members as the list of people i associate with wil become non existent as well